Mahara Wayman [00:00:00]:
Hi, everyone, and welcome to the podcast. Today, get ready to meet the incredible Nicole Marie, a true embodiment of pursuing dreams and embracing life's unexpected turns. Born in Hollywood, Florida, nicole Marie's childhood was filled with dreams of being an astronaut, a journalist, singer, and dancer. She had a vision of merging all her passions into one badass profession, and little did she know she would achieve exactly that. As an energetic life guide, her journey has been a whirlwind of unexpected twists and turns. After serving as an aviation mechanic in the Navy, she found herself medically retired at the age of 23. But as they say, when life knocks you down, you rise up even stronger. She decided to embark on a new chapter and tied the knot, only to realize she was unsure of her own identity and desires. However, the experience of becoming a mother brought immense joy and ignited a deep longing for personal expansion. Driven by her passion for personal growth and empowerment, nicole Marie has dedicated herself to helping others unleash their inner badass and navigate life's challenges with resilience. As a life guide, she empowers individuals to embrace their authentic selves, discover their true desires, and create a life that aligns with their deepest passions. With her infectious energy and unwavering belief in the human spirit, nicole Marie is here today to guide you on a transformative journey towards your fullest potential. Welcome and thank you so much for joining me. I'm excited to have this conversation with you.
Nicole Marie [00:01:41]:
Thank you. Yes, me too. I'm grateful to be here.
Mahara Wayman [00:01:46]:
Now, when we spoke earlier, in preparing for our conversation, you mentioned that there were three key things in your life that sort of perpetuated this change that you've had. Can we start with the first one?
Nicole Marie [00:02:02]:
Yes.
Mahara Wayman [00:02:03]:
Excellent. Tell us all about it.
Nicole Marie [00:02:05]:
For me, the first part of my journey was all about physical, right? It was all about understanding my physical self. And like you had mentioned, the first part of my journey found me disabled at the age of 23. I had countless surgeries while active duty, and I felt like this body could not take me. I'm like, what is going on? I had all this desire, this drive, this ambition, but physically, I was being met with this hard resistance, right? I was taking over 17 medications a day. I was overweight. No matter how many diets, fad diets, all the things that I tried, I'd continue to find myself at the same wall. And I got pregnant and had my child in 2015, and by 2017, I was 231 pounds at my heaviest. And I feel like for me, that was the final wall. That was the breaking point of I am done. Like, I don't want to do this anymore. I am not happy. I need to understand what this body is and how to navigate within it. Now, during this time or prior to this time, I had been diagnosed with multiple different conditions, eller's Danlos syndrome, wolf, Parkinson, white, just to name a few. And these two conditions together talk about the well, Eller's Danla specifically talks about the collagen deficiency disorder. So basically, my body didn't produce the glue that held everything together. So the more that I pushed, the more that I was dealing with dislocations, breaks, all sorts of crazy things. So I got to this point in 2017, 231 pounds, I just had a baby. And I was like, something's got to change. So my husband was in the bathroom and I stormed in and I was like, hey, I want to compete in one of those bodybuilding competitions. And he couldn't go anywhere, looking at me like, you want to do what? And I was like, you know, like, the little bikinis, the girls on stage with the butts hanging out. Like, I want to do that. And he's like, okay. You can tell in his conversation he was doing everything he can to be supportive. But in the back of his mind, he's like, has this woman has lost her rocker. What do you mean you want to compete in a bodybuilding competition? So I was like, don't worry. I know that it's a lot. I'm going to do it in 13 months. I have it all figured out. I'm going to lose the first 30 pounds or the first 50 pounds by myself. I gave myself a three month limit to do that. I was like, by Christmas. Once I lose that 1st 50 pounds by the start of the year, I'll get a coach. This is how much the coach is going to cost. I had it literally. Like, it came to me, I was like, this is exactly how I'm going to do it. I knew exactly what competition I was going to compete in. I knew what day it was. I was like, this is how it's going to be. And so he was like, okay. And his only response was, well, I'm not doing it with you. You don't have to. No worries. And so I embarked on this journey. And this was the first time that I was like, no, I'm doing this. And little did I know this was actually the kickstart to my holistic journey. Because in doing this, my intention was I wanted to get off the medication. I wanted to feel healthier. I wanted to understand my body and the limits. And I knew that going into it, especially with the diagnosis of Eller's Danlow syndrome, that there was going to be these physical limitations that I was going to hit. But I was willing to do that. And so I embarked on this journey. I got rid of all the junk food. I started my 1st 50 pounds with keto. I was in the gym every day for 2 hours. I had a strict regiment where I was. I think when I first started, I was literally on the elliptical machine for like 45 minutes. And I was like, Go, girl, go. And then I would go sit in the sauna and sweat it all out and just contemplate life in there. And I did it. Regardless of everything that was going on and to be mindful of this, right, life was still happening. I was still a new mom of a baby. I still had two other children in the house that I was responsible for. I was a full time stay at home step mom. We had four dogs. We had a house, we had school PTO meetings, all of these things. And this was like everything that could be thrown at me was thrown at me. And I did it. I did it. I stepped on stage. 13 months later, it was 116 pounds soaking wet. I competed and placed fifth out of 27, which placing at all was never even in the mindset for me. It was like, I want to go on this journey because I'm unhappy here, and I don't think I'm going to be happy here. But if I go from this wall to this wall, at least I'll be able to see all the different sights along the way, and I got to enjoy so much. I think that was the first time in my life that I physically enjoyed being in my body, watching it change.
Mahara Wayman [00:07:14]:
So, first off, you are a badass.
Nicole Marie [00:07:17]:
Thanks.
Mahara Wayman [00:07:18]:
And as someone who has struggled with her weight for a lot of my life, I really appreciate the dedication that it took to stick to that regime. I'm curious, though, and I'm sure our listeners are curious, what did it take mentally to be that disciplined physically?
Nicole Marie [00:07:38]:
Well, and this is I'm glad you asked that question because that's going to lead us into the second part, right? So during that time, even though I did it, the universe threw everything at me. I lost a close family friend during that time. We had trials and tribulations being thrown at us left and right. Obviously, my marriage was questioned and really put through the wringer, and it's kind of like this ongoing joke, because they didn't just lose over 100 pounds. I actually lost closer to 300 pounds, because at the end of this, my husband and I got a divorce. Okay. So then it really came up to me that even though that I was, I think it was, like pure determination, like, I'm not going back to that was what got me through it, because mentally, by the time that I competed and I took that breath and I'm looking around and I was like, everything's crumbling. It got to this point where I was like, I made this hardcore push to do this physically. And for the first time in my life, I look in the mirror and I'm like, Damn, girl. Yes. Right? But then I'm looking around me and I'm like, oh, my goodness. Marriage is shadowing. The house is coming apart. There are things that are happening. And I realize, okay, now it's time to work on the mental part because what do I do now? And there was that little voice in my head. Did I make a mistake? Should I have not done that well? Am I doing enough? What happened? And it just kept coming. And being a veteran, I'm surrounded by incredible veteran friends. So two of my best friends, an army veteran and an Air Force veteran, would come and sit with me on the couch and we'd smoke our little blunts. We'd sit there and I'm like, okay guys, what are we going to do? And it's so funny because we've talked about this. Now we had ushered everyone through their divorce. Like the army guy had his time where he went through his divorce. And then it was my time. And when my time happened, he was like, yeah, when you crash, you crash, the tsunami comes. I'm like, yeah, what do we do? So we're sitting on the couch and he looks at me and he goes, well, we're going to do what any warrior does. He's like, we're going to go into the woods and we're going to do psychedelics. And I'm like, okay, what do you mean? He's like, yeah. So he told me the story about how Vikings, like, back in the day, they would come back warriors, and sometimes they would be really messed up from the things that they saw, from the things that they experienced. Who is to tell what messed up means? But there was some things going on in here that did not allow them to just jump back into life. And so he told me of the story, how they would make this drink this tea, and they would let the Vikings drink it, and they would go out into the woods for three days, and they would either come back completely changed or they wouldn't come back at all. So he was like, we're going to go do that. And I'm like, who's we? He's like, listen, I know you think I'm crazy, but just trust me. I'm going to plant this seed here. This is not something that we're going to plant overnight. And he's like, but one day and one day soon, something's going to happen and you're going to call me and you're going to say, let's go into the woods. And I'll know, I'll know what it means. So I'm thinking to myself, like, okay, crazy man. We're going to go into the woods.
Mahara Wayman [00:11:00]:
Hold that thought. I want some clarity for the listeners that may not know, what exactly do you mean by psychedelics?
Nicole Marie [00:11:06]:
So at the time when he said psychedelics, I don't think I knew what he meant either. But specifically when we started having the conversation more, I realized that Earth provides all of this beautiful medicine for us. And the first process of my experience of going through this physical detox, it was realizing, okay, well, obviously the universe, god source, creator, Jaw, whomever you call him, put us on this planet. And he knows that this body is going to take it's going to take a little beating, right? So there needs to be something that we can put in our body that allows us to naturally heal this. And so mushrooms were grown. And so this was specifically talking about the psychedelic powers in mushrooms, the psychedelic powers in natural medicine. And during this mental experience, this mental detox, as I'd like to call it, is when I really understood the power of plants, the power of nature. So like he said, I called him one day and it was like, I think, like two months later. And I was like, you're right. You win. I'm done. I'm walking into Walmart. What do I need? And within a week, we were planned to go on this trip. Now, for those of you who are not in Florida, I would like to explain to you the terrain for a moment because this is going to be very key here. So he decided, army guy, never let the army guy plan anything, but he decided that if I was going to do this, then he was going to take me into the suck is that he calls it the suck of Florida trail. So we went into Big Cypress, which is the heart of the Everglades. And so for those of you who have ever been to Florida or read about Florida, the Everglades is the swamp. It's where the alligators, the pythons, cypress trees, there's water, murky waters, all of the things. And he goes, we're going to do three days in Big Cypress. Okay, cool.
Mahara Wayman [00:13:10]:
Great.
Nicole Marie [00:13:10]:
I have no idea what this means, but he did prepare me. He said, listen, I just want to let you know. He goes, if you hurt yourself, it's a $10,000 medevac to get you out of this. There's no roads. There's one way in, one way out, and it's 33.7 miles in one direction. He goes, however, because we're your buddies, we'll do you a favor if you get hurt. If it's $10,000 to med, evacuate out. We'll only charge you $7,000 to carry you on our backs. And I was like, okay, well, so we went out. Three veterans go into the woods. And that is not the start of a punchline. That's literally what happened. We went into the woods here, and about mile and a half in, the air force guy looks at me and he goes, you ready to do this? I was like, yeah, we're going to do this, man. I have no idea what this is, but we're going to do this. So he pulls out this bag of these beautiful purple little mushrooms with this ring around it, and he gives me some gummy worms. And there's like sweet and sour gummy worms. He's like, just eat the mushroom and eat the gummy worm. He's like, taste is going to be terrible. But the sugar of the gummy worm will cut it right down. You'll be fine. So we took a little cap, and we're walking out, and all of a sudden, that voice the what are you doing? Who do you think you are? What is your purpose on this planet? Are you enough? How dare you? It started to get quieter and quieter and quieter, and all of a sudden, the colors got brighter and brighter and brighter, and it just came to this point, whereas we're walking, and it was just like we were floating. And I am not one who is shy of words, as you can hear. And so as we're walking through, I'm like, oh, my goodness, look at that tree. Look at how beautiful that flower is. And all of a sudden, it clicked to me, I was exactly like that tree. I was exactly like that flower. Just like the Earth grows trees and flowers and all of these creatures, the Earth grows people, too. And I was part of this creation. And that's where that mental clarity, that click came in. Oh, that's who I am. I am a creation of this Earth. I am a spiritual being having a human experience. I am a being having experience in this body, this body that I just work so hard to get. I was like, okay, I get it now. The next couple of days, for anyone who has ever experienced any sort of psychedelic trip with mushrooms, you realize that when you actually take the mushrooms, that's the fun part, right? But the work comes in on day two. It's the reflection. It's when you wake up the next morning and you're remembering and you're reflecting and you're digesting the feelings, the sounds, the smells, how everything made you feel. That's where the work comes in, and that's where it truly allowed me to kind of turn that switch back on slowly and realize that it was a switch. It's a choice, right, to be in the mind to allow that voice to be on all of the time. So I got to choose to turn it back on and use it as a tool to analyze my life situation, analyze how I was going to move forward through the divorce with a three year old, analyze what my life path was at this point, and how I was going to come back into form. I had literally felt like the caterpillar that was in the cocoon that had completely was doing this metamorphosis. I was melting down. I was removing all of the things that were no longer serving me. And now I was like, okay, now I get to reprogram this right? Now. I get to choose the thoughts. I get to choose the words that are coming out of my mouth. And so coming out of that trip, it was one of the most intense and difficult things that I have done in my life, but it was also one of the most rewarding things that allowed me to understand that I was not my thoughts. I was not my thoughts. Right. And so phase two.
Mahara Wayman [00:17:23]:
Okay, first of all, what a fantastic story.
Nicole Marie [00:17:26]:
Thank you.
Mahara Wayman [00:17:27]:
And no, I really want to thank you for sharing that because I think that might be a little shocking for some people. I don't know, I'm just guessing here, but I really appreciate how you explained it. I'm curious though, because as you were telling it, all I could think was, I don't think I'd have the guts to do that. I would be scared out of my mind. First of all, I am not going hiking in the Everglades.
Nicole Marie [00:17:51]:
Sorry.
Mahara Wayman [00:17:52]:
Right? But secondly, I think I would have a tremendous amount of fear. And I'm wondering, how did fear play into your three days at all? And if so, how did you navigate that?
Nicole Marie [00:18:04]:
I think that's a great question. And I feel like when everyone asks me that, it always says the same thing. No one on this planet is going to convince me that the power of prayer and the power of meditation does not work. Because I love nature, y'all, I do. I love nature. I love every bit of it. But I was in this Everglades and I was praying, God, I love the animals, I love the creatures, I love all of the divine things that you have created in this Everglades. For the sake of me getting through this, please, for the love of all that is good and holy in this world, do not let me see any of it. Parade lord, I know that there's alligators because there was points of this where we were in water, like up past my knees. Now I'm five six up past my knees. I'm not a short girl, but I'm not a tall girl. That's high water. And I'm walking through this water and I'm like, Alligators, I am so grateful that you're letting me come into your home. Please stay away. Please pray as I'm going through and through that entire trip to the point that my friends got so mad at me, because we met people on the trail and there was like a guy, a Navy veteran who was solo hiking. And then there was a group of women who I think they met, like, at a rock climbing club. And so we exchanged phone numbers and stuff during the hike and they were like, sending pictures. Oh, yeah, 1 mile back, there's this big alligator on the bank and like, oh, 2 miles forward there's this big thing. And we would get there and there would be nothing. And at this point, they both looked at me and they were like, if you don't stop, I'm like, you ain't seeing nothing. No, Lord, thank you, thank you. And we did not the only thing that we saw, which I think it was like a joke, because I have this respect for frogs. I'm not afraid of them. I just appreciate them way over there. I think it's because they're slimy and they can jump and they're very random. I don't know what it is, but the only thing we saw when we were out there was a tree frog, and it landed on my pack. We did not see anything else. It was literally just praying and being in my body and just having this massive respect, this massive connection with the land and just talking like, I know that this is your home. I know I'm in your house. Thank you for letting me be here, but let me get through this. And I did.
Mahara Wayman [00:20:28]:
Oh, my goodness. My mind is blown. What I'm hearing is if we go back to the beginning of your story, you decided your challenges manifested in a physical manner. Lots of physical challenges. When you hit a certain weight, you just hit that spot where you're like, that's it, I'm done. I've got to make a change. You use determination to just plow your way through a pretty tight regime to mold your body differently. So you lost a lot of weight. You went into a competition. When that was over, you realized, wow, I'm standing, but the rest so many other things in my world are crumbling. I need to do something a little bit differently. You ended up going deep on the inside mentally, with the help of some natural psychedelics and some very good friends, to find a different level of you inside. So mentally, the first one, there was the physical, now there's the mental. And what I'm hearing is that you really roped in a very powerful aspect of spirituality just to help you get through the mental.
Nicole Marie [00:21:34]:
Without even knowing?
Mahara Wayman [00:21:35]:
Yeah, without even knowing.
Nicole Marie [00:21:36]:
That's what I'm saying.
Mahara Wayman [00:21:37]:
So cool. Okay, so what next?
Nicole Marie [00:21:43]:
This is where it gets interesting, right? Because you would be like, oh, she's out of the woods. Everything's great hunky dory, we're fixed, right? And then all of a sudden, I get back, get back into life, take these deep breaths, come back into myself. And physically, when I got back from that trip, I needed, like, three days to recover. Your girl didn't get out of bed for, like, three days. And I was faced with having to have another surgery. And at this point, I think that I was bordering the line of feeling defeated because I was like, what do you mean? I thought the surgeries were in the past. What is going on? And all of a sudden, there was this voice. It was like, you need to see something, and this is going to be your last surgery. And so I'm like, okay, cool. So now, at this point, there was this level of surrenderance that had kind of happened in me without even knowing. But I think it was like needing to consciously take that next step to surrender, which was what I was needing to see. So I was told in 2020 that I needed to have a fusion of the vertebrae in my neck, the c five, c six, c seven vertebrae, that I had herniations in there, and that it was time for me to go through a surgery. Now, mind you, at this point, we have gone through the things divorce, single mom of a three year old, living in a house by myself with this baby, maneuvering through life, figuring out how to I keep going on these grand adventures, and now I'm taking this information back and figuring out how to integrate it into life. And finally I got to a point where I said, you know what? I'm going to have this surgery, and I'm going to take this time, and I'm going to heal mind, body and spirit. Now, let me tell you something. I had no idea what the words that came out of my mouth, I tell you now, I didn't know. I had no idea the intention that I had just set, but that was the intention. So I go on Facebook, marketplace, I Google old lady chair. I found this little old lady chair with the big arm rest. And I was like, I'm going to get me an old lady chair. I'm going to get some crystals. I'm going to get a book, and I'm going to sit my butt in this chair, and I'm going to essentially be paralyzed for the next down for three weeks and learn how to walk all over again. Like, this is what we're going to do. But in doing that, I was going to learn myself and not myself of who I think I am, but like, who the heck is in this body? What the heck do I do with it, and how did I get here? I had so many questions. Who am I? What am I? What am I supposed to do? It was time. So I actually started with the power of now by E Cartoli. No one on this planet is going to convince me that that book is not seeded with magic. Because when I read that book, something incredible happened. It was being able to recreate the experience that I had on mushrooms, of being able to turn the brain off, but actually being able to consciously choose to do it. It was like, okay, this was this utopia of an experience that I had on mushrooms. And now I'm reading this book, and I'm slowly watching, like, or feeling right, these switches come off. It took me forever to read it, to be honest with you. My sister's like, you're still reading that thing? I'm like, you don't understand small bites. The way he wrote it was, like, incredible, because he would write a question, which was literally the question that would come in. Like, I would hear the ego, and then it was the statement, and then he would write a pause, and it was like, literally, like, right when he wrote that pause, my body was, like, taking a breath. I was ready. And it was like, sometimes the pause for me would last a few minutes, and I would kind of feel it all click. But sometimes that pause would last three and four days, and I would watch, literally watch myself become the observer, and I would watch that kind of get to that point, right? But in order for me to have that surgery and I'm going to take us back for 1 minute because this is the key point that I tell everybody. There got to this point a week before I'm supposed to have this surgery. I got my old lady chair. I made this commitment. I set this powerful intention. And then all of a sudden, things started shifting and moving again like they did in the first time. And now I'm sitting here, and I'm like, what the heck? What am I going to do? How am I going to do this? All of these logical questions started happening, and I literally found myself smoking a blind, like, ten in the morning, like, cradling myself on the couch. Like, someone's going to think I'm a lunatic. And I'm sitting there, I'm like, okay, now what? Now what? And I literally Googled being disgusted with my own thoughts. And that's where I was introduced to E Cartoli and Alan Watts, because those were the two things that came up. And Alan Watts, it was this beautiful video of the journey of purpose. It was like understanding that we were, like this great big thing that was experiencing itself from so many different views, right? And then E Cart holy like the power of now, the power of being present. So it was this massive moment of surrenderance, of I don't like this. I don't like what I'm hearing. I want to turn it off. I want to learn. I'm done. Whatever. Just show me. And that was when everything was able to be possible. So I go on this experience. I read this book. I'm starting to learn things. And then I had all of these questions, right? So I'm like, okay, that makes sense. But now what? Why am I still meeting these physical why am I meeting these physical boundaries? What am I doing wrong? So I started learning. I opened up Pandora's box and jumped right in and started learning about astrology and numerology, and we started learning about the teachings of Buddha. And I was raised Catholic, so I kind of was like, okay, do I need to pull the Bible out and start reading more of this? And I started learning about Chakras, and all of these things kind of made sense, but there was still something, right? And I always say it like this. If we think of the circle, right, and you're in the middle of the circle, and we have a bigger circle around that and religion, all of these tools, astrology are different means. To get into the circle. And I'm like, Why? I'm getting in, but there's still a blast. There's still a barrier. There was still something. And I'm like, what the heck? Why? So one day I'm on Clubhouse, and I'm having this conversation with somebody, and so the person says to me, have you ever heard of human design? I was like, I have no idea what you're talking about. And so she goes, Human design, it's like this system that she goes and she said it to me like this. She goes, I'm going to attempt to explain it to you because I feel like you're here for me to deliver this message. However, I've never delivered this message before, and I don't know much about it, but you'll know what to do. And I was like, okay. So she starts kind of explaining these things to me, these concepts of how this is a system that is based on the combination of the eching, the tree of life, kabbalah, astrology, quantum physics, and how it talks about how all of these things compounded together make you so I'm like and then all of a sudden, there was this flashback memory to being in the woods. And I was like, everything is energy. Whoa. Hold the phone. Everything is energy. Everything is energy. And then I realized all of those tools that were trying to get me in was I was it the whole time? I am the energy. I am the source. I am the daughter of God. I am the creation of Source in this physical form. Whoo. It was like now all of a sudden, these things were coming off. And now it became wait a minute. Everything created is created to enhance my experience, not to be depended on, not to be utilized. It was these were all tools. Cool. What the heck kind of energy do I have? Because I forgot, right? And that's what human design led me to. So now this spiritual journey, which what I thought was a spiritual journey, was actually a remembering journey of remembering that I am energy. Everything is created of energy, but not everything is created of the exact same energy. Therefore, humans are not created of the exact same energy. So now we have gotten to this third phase of Nicole is a projector, okay?
Mahara Wayman [00:30:52]:
Tons of information, and I want to know, and so do our listeners. When did you have the surgery in relation to discovering human design?
Nicole Marie [00:31:04]:
So the surgery was in October of 2020, and I was led to human design, like that, February of 2021. So within a few months, it was a very quick once they started utilizing the tools, because I did, okay, this is a good tool. Put it in the back. Astrology. Okay, this makes sense. Here's my big three. I knew I was a Taurus son. I knew that I was all and I'm like keeping going. Numerology. Okay, I'm a life path three.
Mahara Wayman [00:31:35]:
How does it all fit together?
Nicole Marie [00:31:37]:
Yeah, I started to see all these little boxes, but I literally felt this ring, this thing being formed around me. And I was like, no, we don't want this. What is this? And I'm, like, pushing it all back. And then in February, I was led to human design. And it was so funny because the way that I was led to human design for those of you who are not familiar, clubhouse is like this drop in audio platform, right? It's an incredible resource, great tool. I've met incredible connections on there, and I've even recorded some chats and stuff on there. So you go in, there's no picture. It's just audio, which really allowed me in this weird way, to allow myself to feel the energy of the conversation. Because you're not picking up on facial expressions. There's no cues. Most of the time, I would close my eyes and we have this running joke now that I started doing in person, zoom or whatever, interviews. My best friend was like, Nicole, what are you going to do? And I was like, I don't know. I have to figure it out. And what she was referring to is when I started doing Clubhouse, in order for me to get into my voice and to really feel the energy in my body, I was always naked in a bathtub when I did these calls live, because it was the only way that I can break. I was able to break through the barriers and no one could see me. I mean, every once in a while, you would hear the splash, and people would be like, Are you in water? And I'm like, yeah, I'm in a bath. But that was how I was able to really just trust my flow and find my flow in talking. So it becomes this joke of like, well, what are you going to do? Don't worry, I have clothes on. You're welcome. I figured out how to dress myself and to talk and be in this form, but it truly is, and if you think about it, it truly is the cycle of the butterfly. It truly is the caterpillar. Like, we're going into these cocoons where we're not forgetting where we came from. I'm not forgetting the surgeries. I'm not forgetting all of the things that led me into this moment. The physical journey, the mental journey. But in all reality, I'm remembering that I'm meant to be a butterfly and that being a caterpillar was just one phase. Right?
Mahara Wayman [00:34:00]:
So much great stuff that you're sharing with us, and I want to thank you for that. What I heard something that I speak about quite a bit with my own clients, is to get curious. And I loved how you said that. You just got so curious. And to your point, there are lots of different ways to enlightenment, right? Really? Well, I love your diagram of the circle, and when we can embrace this understanding that we are all energy, we are all spiritual beings having a human existence. Everything around us, we manifest to support us in some way and not to be afraid to look that in the eye and ask, why are you here? Like you did? Why do I still have a physical challenge? I just spent three days in the Everglades, for God's sakes. Seriously, have I not proven myself? Like, I can imagine all of those questions, but you've really been very courageous, I think, in honoring your truth and asking the tough questions. And Eckhart Tolly is amazing. I haven't gotten through that book.
Nicole Marie [00:35:10]:
Really?
Mahara Wayman [00:35:11]:
It's such a big book. Like, it is. It's not a big book, but it's a big book.
Nicole Marie [00:35:15]:
Yeah.
Mahara Wayman [00:35:16]:
I love that you did that and that you've mastered that. Now, today, let's fast forward to today. You've been doing human design for three years. Two years.
Nicole Marie [00:35:25]:
Consciously practicing for three years in my experiment, yes.
Mahara Wayman [00:35:28]:
Okay, so it's pretty clear you're badass. And the reason that I've started this podcast is because I want women to know and men that we are all badass. We just have to remember that, right? You've demonstrated it in lots of different ways. But I'm curious if you could say three things that you either do think or feel today that really make you badass compared to where you were before you decided to join that goal on a bodybuilding competition, what would those three things be?
Nicole Marie [00:36:02]:
Gratitude, resilience, and humble.
Mahara Wayman [00:36:07]:
So talk to me about why each of those are important. Why did they come up? Why do you want to share that with our audience? Yeah.
Nicole Marie [00:36:12]:
So I feel like the resilience is going to be the most important, right. Is no matter what the resistance is, realizing that you're creating it for yourself for a reason, you create your own resistance. So being resilient, this is where humble comes in, right? Being humble enough to say, okay, all right, I'm doing this. Let me take a step back. Let me see what I'm missing here. What can I learn from this? What can I extract from this? And allowing ourselves that space and that grace to keep going, that's where resilience comes in. It's that pure will and determination to say, I am here for a purpose. And this is where gratitude comes in. Gratitude is a frequency, right? And if we are all energy, we understand that energy is literally energy, frequency, and vibrations, right? So if we can allow ourselves to attune to the natural rhythm, the natural frequency of our body, then we can choose to vibrate at different levels. Right? Now, if we understand that gratitude is a frequency, we can use gratitude to get us to these levels. So if we allow ourselves not to just think, I am thankful, but to feel truly grateful, we can allow ourselves to move through this. So for me, when I pray, right, I'm not saying, Dear God, please I'm saying, I am grateful for knowing that this is a part of my journey. So my prayer literally becomes my gratitude. It becomes my statement, it becomes my manifestation, it becomes my tool. So I am grateful for knowing that I am divinely placed. I am grateful for truly embodying being badass. I am grateful for being in the Divine Right place at the Divine Right time, surrounded by people of light and love, doing the things that are meant for me on my evolutionary journey on Earth. Now it becomes a part of me. Now I'm feeling it and embodying it, and it becomes this thing of instead of this mentality of why is this happening to me? As we talk about the victim mentality, don Miguel Ruez from The Four Agreements, he speaks a lot on the victim mentality, but instead of like, why is this happening to me? We are now saying, I am grateful for knowing this is happening for me. Right? And it's a magical difference. You can feel it in your body. Like, even if you say, why is this happening to me? Versus I am grateful for this happening for me, there's this emphasis of knowing that everything that is happening is happening for me in this moment. Well, I must be special. I must be real special. If everything is happening just to get my attention, well, then I get to choose because I am the creator of my own reality, what I focus my attention on, right?
Mahara Wayman [00:39:18]:
What a beautiful reframe. I love that it's not as easy as it sounds. And I've had family and friends that kind of look at me like cockeyed, like, what am I talking about? But we keep the conversation going and I love that you put it in such a way that it doesn't have to be difficult because we all have choices. And this isn't to negate any of the challenges that we all face. We all face different challenges and you face definitely your share. What I think is really powerful about your story is that the challenge came and you stood up to it and you asked questions and you kept and you showed a lot of trust, I think. Trust in your friends to give you psychedelics and walk into the that's a lot of trust. Trust in yourself to say yes to yet another possibly very challenging surgery. Trust in yourself to follow the path. I talk a lot to my clients and to the audience about what it means to be badass. And really it means accepting you wherever you are on your journey. And it's not about how you look or how much money you make or any of that stuff. It's just saying hand on heart, I matter and I'm here. Listen to me. And if I make a mistake, I'll learn from it and hold my hand. I'll take you, I'll help you on your journey. So many components about being badass, but you have absolutely shared many of them with us today. Is there anything, Nicole, in your story that you haven't told us that you want us to know? You've shared lots and there's so much more. I think we're going to have to schedule a part, too, that's all about human design because I can just see the comments now, like, okay, that was interesting, but tell us more. Yeah, one more thing before we wrap this up.
Nicole Marie [00:41:14]:
I mean, I feel like what everyone needs to know is that there needs to be two things present, right? Willingness and bravery. If you are willing to make the change and you are brave enough to hold on to that, anything is possible.
Mahara Wayman [00:41:31]:
Beautiful. Oh, my goodness. How can my listeners reach you?
Nicole Marie [00:41:37]:
Yes. So I am on Instagram. I have two instagrams. I have True Everlasting You, which is just about the work. It's about being able to feel empowered to understand the journey. And then everlastingme nicole Marie on Instagram. That's just my personal journey. Some of my quirky shares, some of the things that I do to move through it. And then I also have a website. It's everlastingyou life. Everlastingyou Life. And you get to know me, my best friend, my business partner. The Frequently Asked Questions page is just our heart and soul right now. I advise anyone who is wondering, what is human design? How do I read my chart? What do I do? What is all of these things? What's frequency? What's energy? All of those questions are on there. Every question that I have ever been asked has been put into this drive. And then her and I sit down and we answer them one by one and then we put them on the drive. So I recommend checking the website weekly because it's being changed every two to three days. We're adding audio features for those of you who don't want to read at all because sometimes we go a little hand in some of these questions. So there's so many different ways to connect with us. And, yeah, the website is a great resource.
Mahara Wayman [00:42:55]:
Wonderful. Well, I will, of course, put all of this information in the show notes, but, Nicole, thank you so much. I thoroughly enjoyed chatting with you today. Your story is amazing and the work that you do is amazing, and I want to thank you for sharing that with us today. Everyone, thank you so much. We will see you next time on The Art of Badassery. That's it for now.
